Vibrating Energy: Friends, Family, Relationships

“I know who I am. I love who I am. I like what I do. And I like how I do it. And I like my mistakes. And I like the way I learn. And I like the pace with which I learn my mistakes. I don’t want to be anybody else but me. And by knowing this, I want to continue figuring out who the fuck I am. That’s it.”

– Zoe Saldana

Vibrations. There was a point in time where I thought I was just “enjoying life” going out drinking, meeting new people. And at the time I thought that’s what I needed. But as most of us know, there’s no true happiness in that. After some time I found myself feeling worse and the decisions I made just escalated these emotions. Being out and feeling a lump in your throat, questioning yourself and mostly feeling unfulfilled. I had to take a step back and evaluate myself at a deeper level. I realized all I was doing was avoiding the pain and doing anything to just feel alive or numb myself from it. I became obsessive over my past and felt like I was stuck in it. I wanted my power back but didn't know where to begin.

If you want to know where to start the answer is in Vibrate Higher Daily. The author Lalah Delia came to my rescue when I needed it most. Through her words I resonated deeply with where I was at in my life. Emotions I felt buried so deep being dragged to the surface. I realized I was vibrating at a low energy level. Surrounding myself with people who matched this energy and let it consume me. I found myself in unfulfilling conversations. Stuck in the past, complaining and more importantly poor decisions that made me question my own worth. I closely observed the people in my life and the decisions I was making. Your body can sense this vibrating energy if you listen close enough. I had to focus on myself and how I felt around certain people. I can promise you, since I have focused on them I have found so much peace.

I had to shift my energy level and refocus where I was prioritizing my energy and with who. I wanted to be around empowering women who know themselves. Who know what they want. A mutual relationship of uplifting, support and encouragement. I no longer had the space for empty relationships. I started to make changes in my life. Hitting the basics for myself and prioritizing my needs and what I want.

- Morning Meditation

- Limit alcohol

- Self Care weekly

- Move your body

- Time with family and friends

The women in my life both family and friends have been nothing short of incredible. A constant reminder to myself of the woman and mother I am. My career in labor and delivery provided me the opportunity to come across some of the kindest souls. I simply could never repay them for the impact they have had on my life. From encouraging me in my role as a L&D nurse, helping me find confidence in myself, to embarrassingly yelling at me to resist the urge to send that text message. There have been moments these women knew what I needed even before I did. But without any force, they let me learn at my own pace. These women have inspired me to vibrate higher. And through every decision, good and bad, they always helped bring me home.

Vibrating at a higher energy level feels empowering to yourself. You know you’re in a good place when you feel at peace. This isn’t to say bad things wont happen here but that is when you know you’re surrounded by the right people. I like to consider them angels on earth, it feels like home and it’s safe. To all of the people in my life who have welcomed me, all of me the good, the bad and the ugly. Thank you for loving me and contributing to my journey.